Saturday, July 12, 2003
i am leaving tomorrow to go to new mexico to see my family. we are having a big family reunion, well big for us anyway since we are small clan of about 14 and thats with our significant others. i havent seen some of these people in about 10 years, so it should be interesting. mister L is excited to meet everyone and go bird watching in a whole new state. i will be gone for 7 days so there will be no posts till i return.
once we get back we have our first appointment with immigration so mister L will finally be able to drive and work. right now he is contemplating what field to enter, if he should stay with philanthropy or look into something new. i just want him to do whatever makes him happy, we dont have to worry about money or bills so he can afford to be choosey.
oh and i want to introduce you all to my favorite artist...
www.banksy.co.uk
i want to start buying some of his work, and maybe even send him a link to this site, but i am a little embarrased. i am usually not easily intimidated but i have such respect for his work that i am a little shy about sharing mine. we'll see if i work up the courage...
see you all in 7 days!
posted by Ms_Bunnie 11:26 AM
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Thursday, July 10, 2003
after having my mini freak out for thinking i was totally mental for putting myself on the internet i found this web site:
www.kawauso.net
it is completely devoted to taking pictures of a stuffed frog on vacation. suddenly i feel much better.
posted by Ms_Bunnie 3:29 PM
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Wednesday, July 09, 2003
today i got to do something really cool, i saved a turtle.
i was driving home and spotted a turtle trying to cross the road. i live in a generally rural area, where normally that might not be a problem, but this little reptile was trying to cross rt.7 which is the equivilent of a 2 lane highway. there is no way he would make it. i whizzed past him and slammed on the brakes. i got out of my car and prayed that no other ones were coming behind me. i could see him about 50 yards off and he was moving determinedly into the line of traffic. he was moving like a bat out of hell. i ran as fast as i could down the road, still praying that no cars would hit me and grabbed him. he immediately popped back into his shell and i carried him back to the car and plopped him in the front seat. i sat for a minute and thought about where to take him and decided on the perfect spot. just down the street from me is a nice semi secluded lake (there is alot less traffic). he had started moving around when i was driving but when i parked the car i was surprised to see him literally climbing the inside wall. he was making some pretty good progress too. i took him and brought him to the furthest place from the roads and left him by the water. he seemed happy to clamber away and more importantly get the hell away from me. i never realized they could be so fast.
posted by Ms_Bunnie 2:56 PM
lately, i have been feeling.
posted by Ms_Bunnie 5:52 AM
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Tuesday, July 08, 2003
i very rarely visit my own site, well not past the first page, which is where i check my traffic. today i decided to take a look at it from beginning to end as though i was a visitor seeing it for the first time. here is what i have concluded:
i must be fucking mental.
what kind of lunatic would go to this much effort to take semi naked pictures of themselves and post it on the internet? what would drive a person to do this?
i look at my face in these photos and i see nothing of the person i see in the mirror everyday. i look so glamourous in some of them that i keep assuming it must be someone else. there is so much sex in them that i am astonished. where is all this sex in my real life? then i seem to really go around the bend and start getting into masks and prosthetics. as if that weren't sexy enough i top it off with some lovely dead things. where the fuck do i come up with this shit? the only thing i wasn't totally horrified by was the photos of other things and people. i liked all of those, mostly because i wasn't in them, but also because i found most of them to be relaxing. i guess the ones that are of me bother me because, well, they're me. this may be hard for some of you to believe but i hate having my picture taken. just abosolutely loath it. there are nearly no photos of me between the ages of 5 and 18, in fact for a great while i was actually terrified of cameras. i look at photos of myself and i feel so exposed, regardless of how much i am (or am not) wearing. i could be wearing a full body suit and to me i would still look naked, so why do i do this?
i must just be a giant masochist. it's the only thing that makes sense.
posted by Ms_Bunnie 4:50 PM
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Monday, July 07, 2003
today has been sort of disheartening.
it didnt start out that way, in fact in the beginning it was quite good. i had no headache and things were bustling and efficient in general, just the way i like them. then i went to go pick up a dress i lent out to someone (my favorite dress actually) and so i found it where they said it would be left and i took it home. it was only then that i noticed a huge black stain running all down the side. i know i did not give it to her in such condition, but she claims never to have worn it, opting to wear another one she had. so where did it come from i have to wonder? i am trying not to get too upset until the drycleaner has his say, but something deeper than the stain has bothered me about all this. it felt like a total lack of respect, i realize it was just a dress, but it was something i cared for and she just treated it like it was a garbage. i cant figure out exactly why but it really hurt my feelings. it feels like there is no point being nice to people, or trying to be generous, because no one cares or appreiciates it. like i said in the beginning it is disheartening. but i know that tonight i will just have to let it go and by tomorrow i will feel back to normal, and by thursday when the dress is ready to come out of the cleaners, i will be fully prepared to deal with whatever outcome. i get really attached to objects, it is something i have had to work hard to overcome, so i may need these 2 days to get mentally prepared for this. i know it's silly, i just cant help it.
posted by Ms_Bunnie 2:28 PM
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